Ian Gallagher

"Maybe we were meant to be lonely, lonely
Maybe we were meant to be on our own
Loneliness has always been with me, with me
But maybe we don't have to be all alone."
• The Fighter, The Fray @ muserevival

8 YEARS ON: It was eight years since Ian last saw Mickey Milkovich. He had just seen his 27th birthday come and go, but that day, inside he was feeling like the same fucked up 19 year old he had been back then. The kid who had been feeling so numb and empty when the one thing that had a stab at making him happy was thrown in the slammer. He had already been losing his footing with life. Mickey had always been an anchor for him, a way out of the shit life he had been raised into. Then he was gone.

( He had made Mickey an empty promise the last time he saw him... )

• mickey milkovich is andifuckingloveit, time jump is 8 years from end of Season 5

Family Matters @ muserevival

Dear Mickey,

This week's been really fucking weird. Oh, who am I kidding, this whole year's been fucking weird... or maybe even my whole life. Can you really consider something weird if it's been your whole life, or does that just make it your normal?

It's kind of like everything's been rebooted. We're all back home, save for Carl who is still in juvie and either going to end up murdered or the HBIC. Fiona's back because she fucked up her marriage, even Lip's been staying here after the chick he was fucking went mental on him and thumped him. Frank's ingratiated himself back into shit because the cancer chick he was apparently chasing offed herself. It's like things have been switched right back to how they were before...

Before you and me.

Shame that doesn't mean I can just switch off all memories of you and be right back there somehow. Life's fucking cruel like that. Some people seem to get everything, and other people, like me, seem to constantly fuck it all up. I ran into Svetlana at the grocery store, but she didn't have Yev with her. Told me that you "Drive truck now" and "make shit money" that's "not enough to feed baby." Guess you really needed to get away. Can't say I blame you. That's not a feeling I can shake.

( I just don't know what family is supposed to mean anymore... )

Love Hurts @ muserevival

Dear Mickey,

I don't know why the fuck I'm writing to you.

I'm supposed to be trying this fucked up thing called journalling. Apparently writing shit down can help stop you being so fucked in the head, but I've got nothing to say to myself. Everything I want to say is to you. But you're not here, and I know that's my fault.

( I know I'm never going to fucking send this... )